Bottom-line, the MRI report says that Cailyn’s tumour has not grown noticeably!! With everything leading up to this, we are very surprised but really happy that we don’t have to turn around and head back to London. Unfortunately, we also have this feeling “I sure hope that there really isn’t growth.” I’ve talked about it before, there is a real power in the expression “once bitten, twice shy”, and this situation proves the point. The only reason we aren’t jumping up and down is the experience we have had over the last year with getting stable results, only to find out that there had actually been growth.
We are temporarily challenged to fully embrace the news and rejoice in it, but I’m sure we’ll get there!! There were some new observations made in the report that I don’t believe I’ve ever seen, and a couple extra measurements that aren’t easy to put into perspective because I don’t have previous measures of the same thing. I have asked Cailyn’s oncologist’s to share her perspective and confirm that her tumour really is stable. I appreciate from my conversations with her that treatment is NOT off the radar for good but we certainly have a “stay of treatment” for right now.
So… here we are back at “the moment”… the only “place” we have any capacity for peace and joy. We will do our best to put our apprehension into a black-box and ignore it. This is much easier said than done. This “stay” will certainly make it a little easier to enjoy the special moments planned over the next few weeks, starting with the Parasport games this week-end for Cailyn.
Thank you for your positive thoughts and prayers. I know they make a difference.