Today is Cailyn’s MRI.
Throughout her journey and over the course of almost 60 MRIs, I have never had pre-MRI dreams in which I learn the results. Last night I did.
I didn’t like the results and the emotions I felt wakened me.
It took me some time to fall back to sleep as my thoughts yo-yo’d between “am I being prepared for the kind of results no one can ever prepare for?”, and, “Cailyn’s tumour has NOT grown!”. Even my “logical” thoughts were conflicting. On one hand, I was acknowledging that this was a first for me, and I feel that ‘coincidences’ in life are rare. On the other hand, I have been busier focussing on what I CAN do and Cailyn has been in good form (minus the heavy cold she has right now). Consequently, when concerns have popped up, I have more successfully dispelled them.
Needless to say, I am welcoming all hopeful energy, thoughts, and prayers.
Here’s to my next positive update that everything is stable!!